A Farewell to Carbs

A 30-something navigating the world of Type 2 Diabetes while remaining fun, fashionable and fabulous.

The closet is bare 03/07/2012

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I have gotten stuck in a rut. I end up wearing the same four pairs of pants, the same six or so shirts, the same two pairs of shoes. I even have two favorite bras.

I have a gift card to Lane Bryant that I got for Christmas. I haven’t used it because I’m saving it for a “reward” for losing 20 pounds. Meanwhile, I have been working on my first five pounds for more than two months.

Full disclosure: I have an entire closet full of clothes. Two closets if you count the stuff that’s way too big and way too small. I have stuff that fits perfectly, but that I don’t like. Stuff that I like but need some small repairs. Shoes that don’t match anything I currently own. And lots and lots of stuff that feels just a little tight around the waist.

At the same time. I hate shopping for new stuff. I feel like a troll in those dressing room mirrors. Nothing looks the same on me as it does on those “plus size” models. (Fuck those size 12 models meant to be plus-size. Really.)

I often say that I’m comfortable in my own skin. And that’s not exactly a lie. I accept myself for who I am and I dream about the day that I can find a man to do the same. But loving my personality and my talent isn’t the same as loving myself in an A-line knee length skirt and a clingy twin-set.

It’s unfair that I know exactly how I’d dress if I had “the body for it.” And  it’s hard to think about losing another 5 pounds when I think about how much I need to lose to fit into the largest Gap clothing.

I don’t exactly know where I’m going with this post. There’s plenty of bloggers who write about being plus-size and fashionable. Maybe one day, I’ll be one of them.

But for today, I’m dreaming about fitting into this.


Not your average burlap sack 01/05/2012

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One of the chief complaints about being a fat girl is that there’s not a lot of options in terms of fun, fashionable clothing. I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve stared longingly at the display window of Betsy Johnson or even The Gap, wishing I was a size 10.

Instead, I’m a size 22 (on a good day!) and thus I am sentenced to the world of Lane Bryant. (Disclosure: I used to work at Lane Bryant’s sister store, Catherines, which at one time was called Catherine’s Stout Shop. No lie!) LB has some cute stuff, but there’s also a lot of stuff that’s covered in ugly, bold prints and/or sequins. ::shudder:: Most of the stuff I like really would look good on a size 14, but alas, I have months to go before I’m there. !

That there is a size-ism in the world of fashion has been well-documented. I’m an avid fan of Project Runway, but I get pissed off when the contestants bitch about the inevitable “Plus Size” challenge because the models “don’t have the right proportions.” (Side note: Can we stop using the term “Plus Size,” please? WTF does that even mean?)

So what’s a big girl who wants to look fashionable to do? Well, Nicolette Mason has made a name for herself as a fashion blogger who does not fit (pun totally intended) into the size 2 mold of the fashion world. She also has been writing for Marie Claire. I just discovered her blog (and her Marie Claire column) and wanted to share it with you.

Update (1:31 p.m., Jan. 5): This post by a blogger I follow is extremely relevant to what I’m talking about, and she does a better job than I’ll ever do in distilling some of the issues facing fat girls in the fashion world. A preview: Tim Gunn calls a size 10 “plus sized.” Whoa.